There’s something they don’t tell you about healing:

You can wake up—and still fall back asleep.

I learned that the hard way.

After my first spiritual awakening in my 20s, I craved connection so badly that I started masking again.

I wanted friends. I wanted belonging. I didn’t want to be the weird, cosmic girl standing alone at the party.

So I laughed at jokes that didn’t land. I said yes when I meant no.

I shrunk myself back into a version that fit.

For a while? It actually felt good. Comfortable, even.

But slowly, the loneliness returned. That aching, soul-deep emptiness.

I realized I had swapped my truth for scraps of approval—again.

And it spun me into a long, slow detour:

A second sleep.

A spiritual forgetting.

That’s the thing nobody tells you about real healing:

It’s not linear.

It’s not a single “aha” moment you ride into eternal bliss.

True awakening happens on a cellular level, not just a mental one—and if you’re not careful, the old world will seduce you back into forgetting.

It’s not because you’re broken.

It’s because the matrix is loud.

Because survival patterns run deep.

Because you’re human.

The real flex isn’t avoiding the second sleep.

It’s noticing when you start to drift off—and choosing to wake up again, and again, and again.

Maybe that’s what healing actually is:

Not a one-time cure.

Not a polished Instagram story.

But a messy, sacred commitment to stay awake, no matter how many times the world tries to rock you back to sleep.

Right now, as a collective, we’re cracking open.

The old hustle culture, fake friendships, shallow goals—they aren’t cutting it anymore.

Many of us are feeling it in our bodies:

Tinnitus. Migraines. Random bursts of anxiety. Full-body exhaustion.

It’s not a flaw.

It’s your soul stretching its wings inside a skin that has grown too tight.

This is the part of healing they don’t sell in the brochures:

The uncomfortable, beautiful, soul-rattling expansion that demands more trust, not more hustle.

You don’t have to earn your wholeness.

You don’t have to be perfect to be free.

You just have to stay awake.

And when you start to drift—because you will—just wake up again.

And again.

And again.

That’s healing.

That’s remembering.

That’s real.

Wherever you are right now, you’re not failing.

You’re just shedding another layer.

Healing is remembering—and you’re already doing it.

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